Bahay-Kubo

A couple of days before my birthday, I was feeling rather shitty and felt like wading in my own vomit of self-pity. You, of course, would remember that from my Pooping In My Pants Yet Again blog entry about a month ago.

By the week before my big day, I was totally a mess. At some point (that was before the Vietnam trip--which all turned out well and great...details of that later, lest I'd jinx the goodies! Yay!), I found myself practically hysterical over being a complete worthless piece of work. I was crying at one point--thinking to myself, "Damn. I'm 32. Unlike my classmates in college and colleagues at work, I don't have my own car, my own house, and not even a Goddamned huge paycheck."

Under normal circumstances or time frames, I would never have compared myself with anyone, let alone feel envious of their good fortune or wallow in self-pity. But these days, out of all 365 freaking days of the year, were my PDDs ("Pre-Birthday Depression Days")...and on every single one of those freaking dayS of the year, I'd allow myself some time to whack myself in the head and entertain self-defamation of character. At that time, I came to realize that, at my age, all I have are a freaking laptop, an iPod, a refrigerator, and a microwave oven. At a certain point in the future, I would literally be the homeless guy with just an iPod.

The idea of me being thrown out of my leased 3-bedroom condo if it got sold (which, by the way, has been for sale in the market since 2003--no takers), and not finding a similarly-cozy new condo scared me shitless. That got me jumpstarted and started crunching numbers. I am buying my own goddamned condo.

Yeah. Sure, the four-bedroom house in Bataan will be mine eventually. I've already made some improvements in the structure and construction, yeah. But...but...I want something I could call my own. Something I purchased with my own money--from my freaking blood, sweat and tears. And not something I will inherit from my mother. Don't get me wrong...I ain't gonna complain or even decline the estate! But..but...ahhh, heck. You know what it's like. Or do you?

So, now, I've been going to showrooms, and meeting with agents, brokers, and financers (uhm...5/6???). Been collecting and collating flyers, proposals, and financing computations. So far, I've seen Belton Place, Senta, Avida West, and later today, I'm heading to Eton Parkview. I have my eyes set on either a combination one bedroom plus studio, or a standard two-bedroom, or that one-bedroom loft unit overlooking the Makati CBD. Turn-overs on 2011. Hmmm...that ain't too long a wait. I should be able to finish financing by turn-over! =)

See you at the house-warming! ;-)